Strange day. For once in many, many years, my room's door is open while I'm inside. It's always locked and closed, no one hears anything from within my room, and aaron also thinks that they think I'm studying hard. For today, I opened the door. Wonder what's going through their minds.

Had a talk with Mimi on Friday night. We went for Funkamania, and after that I drove to Harbourfront's carpark and we sat in there talking. About why I looked so depressed, I was really quite surprise by the quality of conversation. I'm not being mean about this, but the thing is - good conversation is rare among whom I know. Before I knew it, I was telling Mimi more than I've ever told anyone for a good few years, my hopes and fears, things I have never told anyone about I think. Wonder how he took all the information, since I admit it must have been quite shocking for someone not in the know. At least he's extremely sensitive about it, which I'm grateful for. Unlike people in my own faculty - there's just something very wrong about them. Low EQ is my best bet. Not all, of course. I do know a couple who are sensitive when it comes to this, but those are rare. VERY rare.

Wonder how this will change my relationship with Mimi. I mean, he's really alright with knowing so much about me and my alter ego, but it's just me I'm worried about. How will I view it? As it stands right now, I'm starting to feel slightly insecure and embarrassed about it. Then again, he also shared some of his own little matters with me, and I'm really grateful for yet another close friend who's so understanding.

And that, is the reason I shut down my main blog. I'm irritated by insensitive, low-EQ prats who ask wanton questions without considering first how people will feel about it. For these individuals- the door is closed. It's just too bad, but what you will get from me will never be me, and when you don't know a person in his entirety, I don't even call that friendship. We'll just be acquaintances and never more, unless you should prove otherwise. I for one honour these relationships and try to be sensitive and offer a listening ear, and I really expect no less from others.

Had a talk with Aaron on Skype last night, and as usual, although the conversation was quite frivolous, I felt so much better after the talk.

I sound most Taurian, but that's just the principles I live by, so there. For I care none for shabby relationships - all I need is one, just one, and I'm content. And I am. I have a few people I'm very close to, and it's really more than anyone has a right to ask for. And for that I'm grateful.

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